Last year, a friend gave me this journal anthology. Pictured above is the entry from the day I showed up at that studio feeling out of shape, unqualified, and unsure. Those feelings still come and go, to be honest. But I'm loving what I get to do and excited for things to come.

January 2018

This time last year, I was in a post-New Year's, pre-birthday slump. As an achievement and completion-oriented person (Enneagram 3w2), New Year's is a time I rigorously review the previous year and plan for the next. In 2016, I'd hit the wall personally, left my stable job in the field I'd dedicated my entire life towards in search of something better for me.

I knew I needed to create momentum for myself. In my experience that comes from doing things you love. I needed to operate from a well of positive, authentic, joyful energy.

Early January 2017, I walked into a Pilates studio. I hesitantly asked the owner about what it would take to become an instructor. The owner briefly shared some details about training before asking, "What do you really want to do? What do you care about?"

That meeting and those questions redirected my thinking. I completed my Level 1 Mat and Reformer training last Spring, teaching at my hometown studio. This summer I landed in Nashville where I've been privileged to work at a few different studios. Also, I just signed up for Cadillac training. It is crazy where a year takes you. I didn't hit everything on my New Year's plans this year, but my dreams are taking me into 2019.

December 2018

While adjusting to a new city and hopscotching studios as I find my place in Nashville, I created my weekly 5x5Flow series. Initially, I did so in an effort to generate more content for my digital spaces and connect with others on a broader level. However, I found myself really looking forward to my 1-2 hours on Monday mornings on my own in the studio. It has been a minute since I’ve worked solo with video and you can see the progression in the series as I get more comfortable/adept at maneuvering camera/body/edits.

The weekly timeline helped stir the creative process consistently – like with exercise, continual effort is crucial. With my work, I tend to be very driven by achievable goals. I’m doing X for Y, etc. Without an endgame in sight, I drift off. However, creativity is a practice. If I only create when there is demand, how deeply am I activating my capacity to imagine, conceive, or cultivate?

Here is the full reel of this adventure to date. Check IG for the in depth breakdown.

Cheers!